True Love Tuesday

I am "borrowing" this title from another blog that I follow called Imperfect Wives.  On Tuesdays, these women post about true love for their husbands, and I have felt the need to share some of my thoughts.

In the past when I thought of "true love" I would visualize young love, innocent love.  Those images of stolen kisses, holding hands, the flutter of my heart when I would hear his voice as I answered the phone.  It is SO easy to get caught up, or TRAPPED in the busy details of life.  I use the word "trapped" because there is a soft, subtle whisper of how I "should" be a perfect wife, perfect mother, perfect... 

I struggle daily with perfectionism.  Some days are easier than others.  I know I am not alone in this struggle.  I know that there are others - others who feel driven to divide themselves into teeny, tiny pieces - giving, giving, giving...  Never refilling, never resting, never allowing myself to be human.  In my struggle, in my journey to "perfectly imperfect" I feel that I am being led to share more with others who may be struggling with the same thoughts and feelings.  I know how much relief I get when I share a portion of myself with another kindred spirit. 

So today, on my true love Tuesday, I am giving my true self to my husband.  I can only do this with God's help, with His grace.  So, today, on true love Tuesday, I am going to focus on stolen kisses, holding hands and listening to the sound of his voice.  Oh yeah, and allow the sound of his voice to wash over my ears, travel down to my heart, and make my heart flutter.  Yes, 13 years later, it does still have the power to make my heart flutter and tingle.  That, my friends, is pretty awesome!

July 1, 2011

I usually try to only post positive, uplifting thoughts.  But, today may be different.  I think I am going to vent a little.  Maybe his bothered me because I woke up with a horiffic headache.  Maybe this bothered me because I dislike politics.  Maybe...  okay those are just ways of my brain denying the reality of why this offended me.  The reality is that it hit too close to home.  I know firsthand just how much this is a problem in our country.

This morning I awoke and was listening to the Today show while getting ready for work.  They were talking about politics, which I usually tube out.  But a phrase catches my ear - a reporter made the statement that one Senator told "Obama to tackle the problem with a pill."  That grabbed my attention!  As I listened on, I heard Sen. Pat Roberts say that "Obama needs to take a Valium and come talk about...."  I intrepreted this to mean that Prsident Obama just needed to get over his anger, anxiety or whatever feeling he was having by taking a "Valium" and get back to work. 

That hit me on so many levels.  These are the same group of individuals who make laws, make DRUG LAWS, yet here they are telling the LEADER OF OUR NATION to take a DRUG to DEAL with his emotion/feeling and get on with it - get back to work.  What happened to the "War on Drugs?"  Maybe the "war" should be fought first with ourselves, then extend it to others.

I am not offended because of a "holier than thou" attitude.  I just want to go on record saying that addiction is addiction.  Drug abuse is drug abuse.  There is no chemical solution to a spiritual problem.  There is no discrimination about whom this disease affects.  Senators and politicians included.  I just don't think that we will ever win the "war on drugs."  I am ready to cut out the denial and get to the truth.  If we all lived by the truth, then I think that we could begin making forward progress.