True Love Tuesday

I am "borrowing" this title from another blog that I follow called Imperfect Wives.  On Tuesdays, these women post about true love for their husbands, and I have felt the need to share some of my thoughts.

In the past when I thought of "true love" I would visualize young love, innocent love.  Those images of stolen kisses, holding hands, the flutter of my heart when I would hear his voice as I answered the phone.  It is SO easy to get caught up, or TRAPPED in the busy details of life.  I use the word "trapped" because there is a soft, subtle whisper of how I "should" be a perfect wife, perfect mother, perfect... 

I struggle daily with perfectionism.  Some days are easier than others.  I know I am not alone in this struggle.  I know that there are others - others who feel driven to divide themselves into teeny, tiny pieces - giving, giving, giving...  Never refilling, never resting, never allowing myself to be human.  In my struggle, in my journey to "perfectly imperfect" I feel that I am being led to share more with others who may be struggling with the same thoughts and feelings.  I know how much relief I get when I share a portion of myself with another kindred spirit. 

So today, on my true love Tuesday, I am giving my true self to my husband.  I can only do this with God's help, with His grace.  So, today, on true love Tuesday, I am going to focus on stolen kisses, holding hands and listening to the sound of his voice.  Oh yeah, and allow the sound of his voice to wash over my ears, travel down to my heart, and make my heart flutter.  Yes, 13 years later, it does still have the power to make my heart flutter and tingle.  That, my friends, is pretty awesome!