Christmas Spirit

I am excited about Christmas this year. Excited in a different way, a way that is hard to explain with words. I haven't felt this excited about Christmas in a long time... I am excited about the season, the traditions and the festive spirit that goes along with the holiday season.

I must confess that in years past I have had my "Christmas Spirit" be determined by how much, how many, how big, and just plain old how I gave gifts. And, with this material focus, I kept a meticulous list. I wanted to make sure everyone and everything was accounted for, leaving nothing to chance. I wanted a perfect Christmas, with the perfect gifts for everyone. Isn't Christmas about giving (gifts) and giving the best, the most, the biggest gifts?

Looking back, I feel a little foolish. I certainly didn't grow up expecting to get everything I could dream of or think to write down on my list to Santa. This material focus of Christmas seems to be more of an adult identity crises or something.

Just like every other aspect of my life, my focus moved from God & His sacrifice for me, to selfish, earthly things. The sad reality is that sometimes I would have moments of clarity, but a television commercial or shopping trip would stir that slumbering consumerism inside me. The next thing I knew I would be out shopping, yet complaining inwardly of how rude and inconsiderate people are during the holiday season. Outwardly, I became just like everyone else, filling my shopping basket with gifts.

When did I become such a follower? I feel shallow and little embarrassed to admit this, but, when did I start believing that a toy or some other inanimate object would be more meaningful to my loved ones than quality time spent with them? When did I buy (no pun intended!) into the false belief that if one is good, then ten is better?

I can almost hear the protest of my kids in the background as I write this... So, my sweet children, I'm not saying that we aren't buying gifts for you. I'm saying that this year will be different. I am going to focus more on the true meaning of Christmas. I want to enjoy each day of this special season. I want to acknowledge the real reason we celebrate Christmas. And the gifts that I give will be purposeful and meaningful. I am going to try to not fall into the trap of allowing material goods to express my love to friends and family. This year, I am going to tell them I love them. I am going to spend time with them that hopefully will be remembered fondly as they grow older. I want to make Christmas memories that will make us all look forward to this time of year. This is intended to be a joyous celebration, and I plan to enjoy every, single moment!